Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less. ---Marie Curie

I like it~
but somehow a lot of things I still cannot understand...

秒针在时间未进入十一点之间停下。我突然感到害怕，因为这手表对我有特别的意义。我轻拍了一下手表，秒针又恢复正常地走动。拿起手提电话，看一看时间，十一点五十八分。回想我的一举一动，我有点感伤。觉悟？！
我不懂已经过了多久，也不想懂。我只知道很久了。我们的时间在很久前就停了。不过我一直不愿意相信已经停了，我让时间一直走下去。
我懂了，就算我让时间一直走下去，不断的思念，停了就是停了。就像秒针停了又勉强它继续走，手表的时间却再也跟不上正确的时间。
错过了在秒针停下那一秒让手表恢复正常，就是错过了。
我已经错过很久了。

巧克力是我的药
平复我那医生无法医治的伤口

但那牌子 那口味的
却是把我病情加重的 毒药

I'm damn tired this few days
because of the operation of restaurant and kitchen
besides that,I also need to do my assignments
So I just bought this doughnut from J Co to credit myself
Yummy~I prefer the durian flavour from Big Apple
J Co durian flavour got a bit fake

Wednesday
My group in charge of cooking in kitchen
We had a great time cooking all appetizer and main course which was Leek and Potato Soup and Pan Fried Seabass
Chef Patrick's mood like damn good that day
Everything went quite smoothy except Yi Chien and Chef Soon fall down in the kitchen
swtz...sure very pain

Yesterday
our group in charge of restaurant
and this time we were served at night because of the replacement of Hari Raya(usually is wednesday afternoon)

SS ing...long time did not take SS d
you know?recently just don't have the mood but yesterday I have
I'm a bartender yesterday
There is pros and cons to be bartender
pros was I no need to do gueridon service of carving roast chicken
cons was I can't really know what interesting things happen in restaurant because I only stay in the bar counter and I cannot see people's face clearly because the light too dim

Our decoration of restaurant
Roy as the Manager of the Day decorated
damn nice isn't it?

The whole night I only busy in the bar counter dealing with Liquids(juices,water,coffee etc)
Anyway I enjoyed doing that
After the restaurant closed,we cleaned the whole restaurant until around 11 o'clock
Then briefing,
Ms Karen(our Food and Beverage Lecturer) praised us that we did the good job
p/s: Chef Chong also said we were good that day in kitchen
Yi Chien is the best in gueridon service(*applause)
and Ms Karen also said that I organised the bar well(hehe)
Of course,we got a lot of good feed back from customers,alwayz(haha)
WOOHUU~thankz to everyone!!!
and then I reached home around 12pm
I damn exhausted man
don't felt like wanna bath but I bathed also
don't felt like wanna brush my teeth but I brushed also
then I slept until the next day don't felt like wanna wake up but I woke up also because got French Class and Wine Class

Wine class somemore got assesment
obviously I did not study for it
If I get half of the marks I already very happy
whatever...
Mr Daniel's class is fun anyway besides we need to memorize a lot of things

Ms Karen is a very cute lecturer
She said a lot of things which other lecturer would not speak
I cannot tell you what she said,its a secret(XP)

I got a lot of good lecturer and chef
next time only tell you guys more about my other lecturer
I'm tired already...
Bonne Nuit~

Everyone also got dreams right!?
What is your dream?

MY DREAMS
I want to be a backpacker
travel around the world
experience other people's culture or somethings else



I want to build a Bed & Breakfast Hotel near a beautifel sea(like this)
There will be one pastry kitchen for me
I will bake somethings everyday
so that my hotel will full of the aroma of baked foods
Anyone who live in my hotel can taste things I bake for free
By the way anyone who live my hotel can get five star hospitality

When I'm free
I can go sunbath or swim in the sea
It will be great if I can dive or surf there

Okay okay...stop dreaming my dear
Now what you need to do is study hard(smart!?)
got scholarship and continue to degree
then work and earn a lot of money(a.k.a papers)
At least one of your dream can be fulfill
or you can get something similar
dream dream dream~

Majority of my friends hate to take KTM
I'm different a little bit,a little bit only
I love to take KTM

Sometimes,I will take KTM to college or shopping centre
Usually I will take KTM alone when I go to college

Its fun to take KTM
1. I can meet some of my friends in KTM and can chit chat with them.
2. On the way to my destination,I can read my books,use up my time wisely(I cannot read books in car,I will feel dizzy,only ktm)
3. I can observe the people in KTM(that's very interesting*wink wink)
4. I can think a lot of things,whatever which is important or not important
5. I can listen to songs and emo

See~got so many things I can do in KTM XP
The thing I hate about KTM is I need to be one of the sardin inside the KTM


Life is like train
Got a lot of people aboard the train and off the train
Some of them aboard at the begining
Some of them aboard the half way
Some of them will sit the train until the final station
Some of them walk off before last station

Everyone in the train got their own aim of life
Who will with you until the last station?
You will only know the answer when you reach the last station

人生就像一列火车
有不同人上车和下车
有些人从起点就上车
有些人在半路上车
有些人会坐到终点
有些人在半路就下车

每个在火车上的人都有着不同的目标
谁会留在火车陪你到最后一站
只有在你到达最后一站时 谜底才会揭开

Joey said Gloria SAKAI when she saw Gloria smile widely to Vanna
and then today became SAKAI DAY already

I don't know why they said Shadhana SAKAI
when they kept repeating it
Yi Chien came out another name for her which is S square(u know mathematics?)
turns out laughed like hell when repeating Shadhana SAKAI action and Yi Chien SAKAI thinking

Then Vanna told told Shadhana that yesterday was Indian Theme because of Chef Chong kept saying Made In India thingy to Gloria
Besides,yesterday Yi Chien also very sakai
She thought herself is a mixer,weighing machine and sponge
Why!?
1.When Chef asked her to mix the ingredients of bread which already inside the mixing bowl,she trying to mix them by shaking the bowl which actually use machine to mix it.
2.She used her hand to take the soap and washed the soiled bowl.
3.When Chef asked her to weight the magarine,she tried to use hand to weight but not weighing machine.
LOLz
Even though I know all this already,I still laugh like SAKAI when listened to it.

I forgot some part already
I only remember we were talking about tortoise and Gloria said for Indian,if take tortoise as a pet,tortoise will take away your money(but for chinese is totally differentXP)
and then she talked her story
bla bla bla...
then she said she got 2 rabbit which looks like dog
We first was stunned.RABBIT LOOKS LIKE DOG!?
and then she said it again :"Yeah~my rabbits looks like dog"
with the sentence and her expression
We laughed again.
I laughed until I felt difficult to breath.
SAKAI Gloria...lolz

Then she said her rabbits called Ju Ju and Jo Jo
Yi Chien laughed like hell
She said that if she actually called Ju Ju but then Jo Jo come out how?
She said nobody call their pets name so similar
well...the Ju Ju and Jo Jo already is a point to make me laugh plus the way Yi Chien talked make me laughed until stomach pain.
I can't really stop laughing at that time.
For your information,we were sitting at cafeteria and our table was the loudest and noisiest.
SAKAI betul la...

During French Class,we joked around also
especially Gloria,she really SAKAI today
she kept saying something funny.
French class is difficult and I cannot get what Ms Adi was talking about(sometimes)
Thankz to my classmates,our class still full of joking around and make me stay awake all the time and receive new knowledge.
After went for lunch and before the second period of time
We suddenly discuss about movies
Linda and I feel that UP was nice but Yi Chien and Rita feel that its damn childish
Jerrr...what childish!?
My tears lingered in my eyes and Linda cried when the scene Ellie(Carl's wife) died.
We so touched that Carl loves her wife so much because of everything he did before and after his wife died.
Cross your heart XX
Okay,back to the story of SAKAI day.
I forgot why already but Yi Chien repeated the Ju Ju and Jo Jo story again to the whole class
obviously I laughed out loud again,non stop
Yi Chien said that do not have owner call their pets name which sounds so similar
She said it confused the rabbits
The rabbits will wondering :
"Ju Ju,she is calling you or me?"said Jo Jo
"Don't know leh!"said Ju Ju
OR
"eh!?is she calling Ju Ju or Jo Jo?Aiya don't care la,just go"
OR
"Why give us this kind of name?confusing us?"
LOLz
as if she knows rabbit language...good one
If you read the sentences but don't think that is funny.
This is because you didn't see the way Yi Chien talk.
Sometimes,the things she talking is not really funny but when add up her expressions and gesture,the things will become SUPER DUPER FUNNY.

When wine class,we laughed again because of Mr Daniel
His class would not be boring because he usually give us a lot of funny examples and ask us to imagine and also joke around.
By the way,he is kinda Yi Chien got a lot of expressions and gestureXP
He class is fun and we gain a lot of knowledge from him.
You guaranteed would not feel sleepy in his class.

Alright,that's my SAKAI DAY
actually still got a lot of funny things but too many already
haha...so save it for myself la

Laughter is the best medicine
I strongly agree
Happy always~

LOLZ~

The event A Night with Phantom was the first time I became a server

Then I also helped in Deli(my college) when semester break

Today,I was a server also in my school training restaurant

Oh ya~for your information,this semester we will run a trainig restaurant for table d'hote menu for our Food & Beverage subject or Culinary&Kitchen Operation assessment.

One thing I hate for being a server is I need to stand for a long period of time with "ah ma" shoes

Why "ah ma" shoes?!

lolz...because its kinda old fashion(out dated!?)

See>>>>

My feet damn pain after wearing that stupid shoes

Everytime I took off that shoes from my feet and step on the floor,

my feeling sure is: "oh finally~finally I can take out this torture shoes"

Other than this,I quite enjoyed to be a server

Although got a lot of technique when serving customer,its FUN

p/s: my mum said I looks like ghost because I was wearing my very loose uniform which is white and black slack.She also said now is what festival somemore wear this kind of colour and let go my long hair,stand on road side at night people will thought they saw something "dirty".

=.=

Do you ever realise we live because of papers?

We study from primary untill secondary school because of a paper
and then we come out from school with the paper
and proceed to study in college or university for paper again
when we step out to society,we need paper to get a job
and then life goes on with working because of paper

People will argue because of paper
Crime will happen because of paper
People will commit suicide because of paper
Majority of people work hard for paper and end up did not enjoy their life
Miserable huh!?

We started our life with paper and I'm sure that we will continue my life with paper
but all my friend,just don't forget to enjoy your life while chasing for papers,ok?

梦里
我把你抱得很紧
感受到你的心跳

当时 这个念头
现在 在梦里实现了

Tu me manques~

I did this way you don't like
so I did another way
but you don't like also

I'm SORRY~
I totally have no idea what you want
Can you just tell me what you want me to do?

I damn tired of this already

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I don't get why
Since you so annoyed of me
why don't you just let me stay away from you?

才刚开学一个星期多
我就累了 累了

但是 路还很长

Chef Soon asked me and Roy to bake two types of cookies...
hmmm...two types of cookies huh!?
First,I don't have enough ingredients and also time...
I usually use long time to bake cakes or cookiesXP
I don't wanna do Chocolatechips cookies again because I don't have chocolatechips already
So I decided to make Holladais coookies

While measuring the ingredients,I found out that I don't have enough flour.
Therefore I cut down the measurement of flour
All ingredients were measured with half of the amount EXCEPT water and egg.
First,I made the butter cookies first
I did not realise that until when I put in all the ingredients,I found out that the mixture does not looks like cookies but cake.
Jerrr...why I so careless
That day in class Chef Joyce just said that all the ingredients must be measure correctly,one thing wrong then something with wrong with the product.
Anyway,I just add in the rest of flour I got and other dry ingredients to rescue the mixture.
And then,AGAIN
half way pouring the water into the cocoa cookies,I realise I haven't cut down this measurement also...
BLUR CASE!!!=.=
Fine fine...haiz

Then the time I want to shape the dough which placed in the fridge for around an hour,the dough its too soft.
I cannot mould the shape from the book.
So in the end,it turns up many kind of funny shape.
Oh ya~part of it its my lovely brother creation.
Thanks for your "disturbing bro"

Like ginger bread...lolz
Actually is 3 different things but then it rise and stick together.
Did you picture what is that?

Flower cookies...

Marble Cookies...Butter cookies...

Hmm...

tomorrow I got few kinds of cookies to give Chef Soon already*wink wink

p/s:my mum said the cookies taste good because not very sweet...wah...first time XP

After lunch,my mum suddenly asked me to bake Butter Cake for tomorrow.

I baked Butter Cake a lot of times until my fingers including my toe also not enough to count.

A big NO,I prefer to try something new.

So I open the book I borrowed from my chef,Oven Magic.

I found WEEKED CITRON

All the ingredient is quite simple and I have it all besides jam thingy.

I felt that it still a nice cake without that so I decided to make this lemon cake.

The methods are quite complicated anyway.

After I put the cake into oven then I read back the methods only I realised that I did not cook the butter until brown.XP

First time so I forgive you,blue fish.

The lemon cake from oven.

At first I don't think of put the icing on top of the cake but it don't have lemon flavour at all><

When I read the ingredients of icing, "lan mu jiu"(the book is in chinese).

I was wondering what kind of liquor is this?!!??

Is it RUM???

Then I suddenly think of my mum always drink "lum jiu"(in hokkien).

LAN MU JIU....LAM JIU....lan mu jiu...lam jiu

Ehhh???!!Don't you think they sound very similiar??lolz

I took out the botol of liquor from cabinet and sought for the word RUM but I can't find any RUM word on it.

Who cares!???Just use it,since I got this liquorXP

Lemon cake coated with icing.

The icing colour suppose to be whiter as I saw in the book,mine nearly transparent already.

Anyway,the cake became GORGEOUS with the icing.

It have the taste of lemon and also "lan mu jiu"!!!

YES!!Success~

***big applause

打翻了回忆的瓶子
洒出来的是有他的回忆

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When you miss someone and you hear happy song,it just tortures you.

Yesterday suppose to be the day i remove my braces but

BUT when i asked the dentist how come he did not do something to my teeth at the back!!!??

He said he tried before but cannot and now again he intended to try=.=

I felt like he trying to earn money because I'm wondering why before that he don't want to try???

And now everytime I go there,I need to pay RM100 because I already finished the actual amount of wearing braces><

HE put something on my tooth for some purpose

and the WORST part is I cannot chew anything for more than one month!!!=.=

I'm spending money to torture myself.

I drank Starbuck Hot Chocolate for lunch and ate KFC LARGE mashed potato yesterday for my dinner.

Today,my mum cooked fish porridge for me and dinner I cooked scrambled egg.

"scrambled" egg with ketchup.I just swallow it...lolz

Then I was thinking for my breakfast after I ate dinner

so I read my books see got what I can eat

I found Brownies and I baked it

Its SIMPLE, only few steps but the final results is not really good.

I got the point Julie Powell wrote in JULIE & JULIA--"simple" is not exactly the same as "easy"

Anyway I got my breakfast for tomorrow and I will learn from mistake.

p/s:better go to bed now,if not later hungry XP

不渴望您的赞美

不渴望您的奖励

不渴望您为我感到骄傲

但请您不要给我一桶冷水

8th August 2009 was the most unbelievable day I ever had

my team(bowie,yi chien and me) won 2nd Runner Up in UPM Food Fair Culinary

AHHHHH~~~~~

I still remember when the MC said the winner of 2nd Runner Up is GROUP 4(which is my group),I'm still wondering GROUP 4 is from which college.

I heard a lot of people shouting(all my supporter which is my chefs and seniors)

I glanced to the display table and saw my durian pancake and the stand written there GROUP 4.

AWWWW~ITS MY GROUP

Not only me slow a tempo, yi chien and bowie were the same.LOLz

At that time,I felt like wanna SCREAM!!!

Omg~I can't believe it!!!

My crystal trophy~I got a certificate and also small amount of money!We got a lots of souvenier too(all sponser by ajinomoto)

Deng Deng Deng~~This was our group work...I'm in charge of dessert plate...This picture not really nice because some of the garnishes missing already.The black black thingy like simen is Black Sesame Gelato,Baked Tapioca Cake,Durian Pancake and Osmanthus Jelly.

That moment is so unforgettable

I'm still in the happiness of winning the competition.

Thank you to all my Chefs,my seniors and friends~^^

Recently my life goes like this for almost 2 weeks(not sure...everyday the same things until i'm blur already)
1.Wake up
2.College Kitchen
3.Lunch
4.Kitchen again
5.Dinner
6.Online
7.Sleep

The competition is around the corner
takut takut takut
I will do dessert alone,without any help when competition
berdikari berdikari berdikari
I still don't have any idea to wrap up my pancake and decorate my plate
idea idea idea
I hate myself always very blur and forgetful><
bangun bangun bangun

My legs very pain
My face got more pimples
I very "PeK CeK"
Nevermind
after competition
I can sit on chair everyday until my butt pain
I can do mask everyday until pimples cannot grow on my face
Nevermind
Nevermind my dear...

p.s: lalala~I got a very very very good news from my friend man...sangat sangat sangat HAPPY~~~~lolz

Never ever give up easily!!!
Go Go Go~