就是因为太在乎
才会生气
才会流泪
才会畏惧

谁可以教我如何拿走它吗？

她谈恋爱咯~
那时候我就懂他们会在一起
虽然她说不太可能
看到她那甜蜜的样子
真为她感到高兴！
要幸福哦~

我呢！？
现在就只能和食物谈恋爱
没关系，我乐在其中
反正也只有它们愿意和我谈恋爱
哈哈~
担心我的体重ing...

When I was young
I wondering why people like to be drunk when they were sad
I wondering why they want to drink alcoholic drinks which was tasted bitter
I wondering what could be that terrible until they want to drink such an awful drink
I wondering how to solve problem by getting drunk
I wondering...

Now
I suddenly wants to drink alcoholic drink
I suddenly wants to get drunk
I suddenly feels like want to run away from my life
I suddenly get the answers that I was wondering when I am young

People just want to drink because they could not figure out what they can do at this period of time
People do not think that alcoholic drinks are bitter because reality life is worst
People do not not want to think of the problem so they drink awful drinks to distract their attention from the problem
People know that problem would not solve even they get drunk but they still wish that everything will be fine when they awake

Alcoholic drink,please?
Anything can be...red wine,white wine,beer etc.

谁可以借我肩膀靠一靠？
我累了，想要休息一下下

期待某个人伸来拉我一把的那一天

I suppose to be Napoleon's wife on that day...but but everyone also thought I am a princess

30th of October(we celebrated Halloween one day earlier)
This is the first time I part of the organiser of Halloween Party and first time went Halloween Party~
Group photo...can see where am i?

I love this...very nice man~

I was in charged with snack that day...

Here are some special snacks I made

cup cakes with cobwebJack-o-lantern and skeleton...

Look like bones right? I failed to make it...too bad...

RIP cookies...

Eclairs a.k.a coffin

Thanks for everyone that helped me

Although it was tiring but I enjoyed it very much~

Vampire was trying to suck my blood...ahhh~~~yi chien u very scary!lolz

I love to see people dancing
locking,breaking,ballet,belly dance etc
I always enjoy it very much either on tv or live
I felt the boys who can dance make them more cool
Don't you think so?haha
I'm so envy that they can dance so well

I wish I could be like one of them but after practice for few times and I realised that I got not enough time to practice until the party night
I give up for the performance
I don't think so I can make it in this short period
I had a feeling of release,just a little bit because still got a lot of things waiting for me to complete
ahhhh~~~~
TIME please to pass so fast
I'm tired of chasing you

*********************************

那天 突然转身时
第一时间我认为是他
心跳突然飙高
看清楚才发现不是他

那天 她告诉我
脑海出现了自己想象的画面
心跳突然飙高
我现在不敢一个人去学校的厕所

那天。。。


越来越神经质了><

我害怕

谁可以给我安全感？

Started practice for the coming perfomance
Bowie is my teacher,she got dance belly dance before therefore she quite good with that
I got dance before but you know what???
I danced quite frequently when PRIMARY school
At that time,all the dance very simply oni and "chin chai" dance people also won't laugh at me because that time I was small
NOW!!Everythings is different
What the difference I think you guys might know
"Face" is the most important thing...

Yesterday Bowie teached me a few steps
Omg~I felt like giving up man
Even though I can dance a little bit but compare to Bowie's is like a big difference man
She is so good for that!
Shadhana and Gloria started practice today
They decided to change to another plan
They going to dance another kind of dance
But I need to stick up with belly dance
Oh shit man...belly got a lots of fat
Diet diet diet><

Nowadays my body skin very unhealty
Went to doctor and he gave medicine but it not really works
got lots of scars on my legs after mosquito bite,although I didn't touch them AT ALL
My aunt,a herbalist doctor said I shouldn't eat too much of fried food and somemore asked my mum to go and make herbal drink for me><
Hope I can controll myself not to eat fried food
I don't think so I can make it XP

Wondering what should I wear for the coming Halloween Party
got a lot of ideas but the only problem is wear to get the costume
I know Subang got one shop but that day I went with my friends,it is closed
Will try to call monday because today is public holiday


Damn excited about it man
First time go Halloween Party
I'm in charge of food and beverage
Planning to create some interesting food for the party
Idea idea idea

Ermm...
anyone got any suggestion to me what costume to wear for the party?

I got a kind of feeling
Its kinda weird because I don't know what kind of feeling is that
Anger?Jealousy?Happy?Depressed?Excited?
I totally have no idea
One thing for sure that it is not a positive feeling

Just wanna take a bath and then go to bed
Tomorrow when I open my eyes in the morning
Its the start of another brand new day,am I right?
Okay,good night~

一段时间，我常在自己的伤口上撒盐

很痛但绝口不提，为的就是想让自己坚强点

那天，盐不再使伤口感到痛

原来，伤口结痂了，不痛了，复原了

留下的疤，就当作青春的印记

默哀，欢呼。

When I was young,I used to day dream.
Not to deny, even now I also will day dream once a while.

There are a lot of shops at the street.
There is nobody but only me walking along the street
When I feels like wanna eat chocolate
I just need to step in the shop and grab a bar of chocolate and eat
Everything in that world is free of charge and have unlimited supply

Don't ask about if there is no man,how things can supply or all other logic stuff
It's just a fancy.
When I was young, I felt that how good if I can live that way.
Can have anything I want
But now, after so many natural disasters were happened in so many countries
so many peoples died
I don't think it will be nice if this happen
it will be a nightmare
Everyone is gone and left me alone
Even though I got everything but I'm lonely
I don't want to me alone!
I'm scared

One of the prophecy said that 21st of December 2012 will be the end of the world
That time,I'm only 21 years old
I seriously don't want it to happen
Who wants it to happen?

Compare to people whom have experienced the tragedy, I know I'm lucky that I'm still living comfortably with my family and friends.
Hope that everyone will appreciate people around you
If worst come to worst,you wouldn't know that one day when you open your eyes, you cannot find anyone around you.

I love you~

Arggghhh!!!
I can't stand this man...
I don't get why,seriously don't get...
Why you like to make things complicated?
Can't you just leave me alone?
I already told you I will go with you
but why you wants to keep repeating the same thing like I don't want to go with you?
Did you know?
It's just annoying!!!
Did you know that?
When I wanna prevent we argue again and walked away
Then don't get why you wanna angry and started talking about other stuff(out of topic)
Swtz..
Please mum,can you just stop it?
Don't make me suffer with this...
I ALREADY FOLLOW WHAT YOU WANT...

Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less. ---Marie Curie

I like it~
but somehow a lot of things I still cannot understand...

秒针在时间未进入十一点之间停下。我突然感到害怕，因为这手表对我有特别的意义。我轻拍了一下手表，秒针又恢复正常地走动。拿起手提电话，看一看时间，十一点五十八分。回想我的一举一动，我有点感伤。觉悟？！
我不懂已经过了多久，也不想懂。我只知道很久了。我们的时间在很久前就停了。不过我一直不愿意相信已经停了，我让时间一直走下去。
我懂了，就算我让时间一直走下去，不断的思念，停了就是停了。就像秒针停了又勉强它继续走，手表的时间却再也跟不上正确的时间。
错过了在秒针停下那一秒让手表恢复正常，就是错过了。
我已经错过很久了。

巧克力是我的药
平复我那医生无法医治的伤口

但那牌子 那口味的
却是把我病情加重的 毒药

I'm damn tired this few days
because of the operation of restaurant and kitchen
besides that,I also need to do my assignments
So I just bought this doughnut from J Co to credit myself
Yummy~I prefer the durian flavour from Big Apple
J Co durian flavour got a bit fake

Wednesday
My group in charge of cooking in kitchen
We had a great time cooking all appetizer and main course which was Leek and Potato Soup and Pan Fried Seabass
Chef Patrick's mood like damn good that day
Everything went quite smoothy except Yi Chien and Chef Soon fall down in the kitchen
swtz...sure very pain

Yesterday
our group in charge of restaurant
and this time we were served at night because of the replacement of Hari Raya(usually is wednesday afternoon)

SS ing...long time did not take SS d
you know?recently just don't have the mood but yesterday I have
I'm a bartender yesterday
There is pros and cons to be bartender
pros was I no need to do gueridon service of carving roast chicken
cons was I can't really know what interesting things happen in restaurant because I only stay in the bar counter and I cannot see people's face clearly because the light too dim

Our decoration of restaurant
Roy as the Manager of the Day decorated
damn nice isn't it?

The whole night I only busy in the bar counter dealing with Liquids(juices,water,coffee etc)
Anyway I enjoyed doing that
After the restaurant closed,we cleaned the whole restaurant until around 11 o'clock
Then briefing,
Ms Karen(our Food and Beverage Lecturer) praised us that we did the good job
p/s: Chef Chong also said we were good that day in kitchen
Yi Chien is the best in gueridon service(*applause)
and Ms Karen also said that I organised the bar well(hehe)
Of course,we got a lot of good feed back from customers,alwayz(haha)
WOOHUU~thankz to everyone!!!
and then I reached home around 12pm
I damn exhausted man
don't felt like wanna bath but I bathed also
don't felt like wanna brush my teeth but I brushed also
then I slept until the next day don't felt like wanna wake up but I woke up also because got French Class and Wine Class

Wine class somemore got assesment
obviously I did not study for it
If I get half of the marks I already very happy
whatever...
Mr Daniel's class is fun anyway besides we need to memorize a lot of things

Ms Karen is a very cute lecturer
She said a lot of things which other lecturer would not speak
I cannot tell you what she said,its a secret(XP)

I got a lot of good lecturer and chef
next time only tell you guys more about my other lecturer
I'm tired already...
Bonne Nuit~

Everyone also got dreams right!?
What is your dream?

MY DREAMS
I want to be a backpacker
travel around the world
experience other people's culture or somethings else



I want to build a Bed & Breakfast Hotel near a beautifel sea(like this)
There will be one pastry kitchen for me
I will bake somethings everyday
so that my hotel will full of the aroma of baked foods
Anyone who live in my hotel can taste things I bake for free
By the way anyone who live my hotel can get five star hospitality

When I'm free
I can go sunbath or swim in the sea
It will be great if I can dive or surf there

Okay okay...stop dreaming my dear
Now what you need to do is study hard(smart!?)
got scholarship and continue to degree
then work and earn a lot of money(a.k.a papers)
At least one of your dream can be fulfill
or you can get something similar
dream dream dream~

Majority of my friends hate to take KTM
I'm different a little bit,a little bit only
I love to take KTM

Sometimes,I will take KTM to college or shopping centre
Usually I will take KTM alone when I go to college

Its fun to take KTM
1. I can meet some of my friends in KTM and can chit chat with them.
2. On the way to my destination,I can read my books,use up my time wisely(I cannot read books in car,I will feel dizzy,only ktm)
3. I can observe the people in KTM(that's very interesting*wink wink)
4. I can think a lot of things,whatever which is important or not important
5. I can listen to songs and emo

See~got so many things I can do in KTM XP
The thing I hate about KTM is I need to be one of the sardin inside the KTM


Life is like train
Got a lot of people aboard the train and off the train
Some of them aboard at the begining
Some of them aboard the half way
Some of them will sit the train until the final station
Some of them walk off before last station

Everyone in the train got their own aim of life
Who will with you until the last station?
You will only know the answer when you reach the last station

人生就像一列火车
有不同人上车和下车
有些人从起点就上车
有些人在半路上车
有些人会坐到终点
有些人在半路就下车

每个在火车上的人都有着不同的目标
谁会留在火车陪你到最后一站
只有在你到达最后一站时 谜底才会揭开

Joey said Gloria SAKAI when she saw Gloria smile widely to Vanna
and then today became SAKAI DAY already

I don't know why they said Shadhana SAKAI
when they kept repeating it
Yi Chien came out another name for her which is S square(u know mathematics?)
turns out laughed like hell when repeating Shadhana SAKAI action and Yi Chien SAKAI thinking

Then Vanna told told Shadhana that yesterday was Indian Theme because of Chef Chong kept saying Made In India thingy to Gloria
Besides,yesterday Yi Chien also very sakai
She thought herself is a mixer,weighing machine and sponge
Why!?
1.When Chef asked her to mix the ingredients of bread which already inside the mixing bowl,she trying to mix them by shaking the bowl which actually use machine to mix it.
2.She used her hand to take the soap and washed the soiled bowl.
3.When Chef asked her to weight the magarine,she tried to use hand to weight but not weighing machine.
LOLz
Even though I know all this already,I still laugh like SAKAI when listened to it.

I forgot some part already
I only remember we were talking about tortoise and Gloria said for Indian,if take tortoise as a pet,tortoise will take away your money(but for chinese is totally differentXP)
and then she talked her story
bla bla bla...
then she said she got 2 rabbit which looks like dog
We first was stunned.RABBIT LOOKS LIKE DOG!?
and then she said it again :"Yeah~my rabbits looks like dog"
with the sentence and her expression
We laughed again.
I laughed until I felt difficult to breath.
SAKAI Gloria...lolz

Then she said her rabbits called Ju Ju and Jo Jo
Yi Chien laughed like hell
She said that if she actually called Ju Ju but then Jo Jo come out how?
She said nobody call their pets name so similar
well...the Ju Ju and Jo Jo already is a point to make me laugh plus the way Yi Chien talked make me laughed until stomach pain.
I can't really stop laughing at that time.
For your information,we were sitting at cafeteria and our table was the loudest and noisiest.
SAKAI betul la...

During French Class,we joked around also
especially Gloria,she really SAKAI today
she kept saying something funny.
French class is difficult and I cannot get what Ms Adi was talking about(sometimes)
Thankz to my classmates,our class still full of joking around and make me stay awake all the time and receive new knowledge.
After went for lunch and before the second period of time
We suddenly discuss about movies
Linda and I feel that UP was nice but Yi Chien and Rita feel that its damn childish
Jerrr...what childish!?
My tears lingered in my eyes and Linda cried when the scene Ellie(Carl's wife) died.
We so touched that Carl loves her wife so much because of everything he did before and after his wife died.
Cross your heart XX
Okay,back to the story of SAKAI day.
I forgot why already but Yi Chien repeated the Ju Ju and Jo Jo story again to the whole class
obviously I laughed out loud again,non stop
Yi Chien said that do not have owner call their pets name which sounds so similar
She said it confused the rabbits
The rabbits will wondering :
"Ju Ju,she is calling you or me?"said Jo Jo
"Don't know leh!"said Ju Ju
OR
"eh!?is she calling Ju Ju or Jo Jo?Aiya don't care la,just go"
OR
"Why give us this kind of name?confusing us?"
LOLz
as if she knows rabbit language...good one
If you read the sentences but don't think that is funny.
This is because you didn't see the way Yi Chien talk.
Sometimes,the things she talking is not really funny but when add up her expressions and gesture,the things will become SUPER DUPER FUNNY.

When wine class,we laughed again because of Mr Daniel
His class would not be boring because he usually give us a lot of funny examples and ask us to imagine and also joke around.
By the way,he is kinda Yi Chien got a lot of expressions and gestureXP
He class is fun and we gain a lot of knowledge from him.
You guaranteed would not feel sleepy in his class.

Alright,that's my SAKAI DAY
actually still got a lot of funny things but too many already
haha...so save it for myself la

Laughter is the best medicine
I strongly agree
Happy always~

LOLZ~

The event A Night with Phantom was the first time I became a server

Then I also helped in Deli(my college) when semester break

Today,I was a server also in my school training restaurant

Oh ya~for your information,this semester we will run a trainig restaurant for table d'hote menu for our Food & Beverage subject or Culinary&Kitchen Operation assessment.

One thing I hate for being a server is I need to stand for a long period of time with "ah ma" shoes

Why "ah ma" shoes?!

lolz...because its kinda old fashion(out dated!?)

See>>>>

My feet damn pain after wearing that stupid shoes

Everytime I took off that shoes from my feet and step on the floor,

my feeling sure is: "oh finally~finally I can take out this torture shoes"

Other than this,I quite enjoyed to be a server

Although got a lot of technique when serving customer,its FUN

p/s: my mum said I looks like ghost because I was wearing my very loose uniform which is white and black slack.She also said now is what festival somemore wear this kind of colour and let go my long hair,stand on road side at night people will thought they saw something "dirty".

=.=