A song for you

"When You Were Around" by Lene Marline

I miss those times,

I miss those days

When you were around,

in so many ways

And it felt so safe,

and I was glad.

But now something's changed,

That makes me sad

And I, was waiting patiently,

But you never came

I realize it now, won't ever be the same... again

Won't ever be the same... again

If you're doing fine,

I don't know

You see, I gave up calling

long time ago

Haven't heard from you,

I guess that means

That I'm no good no more,

that's what it seems

And I, was waiting patiently,

But you never came

I realize it now, won't ever be the same... again

Won't ever be the same... again

You see, I gave up waiting - for you to care

You're not there,

and I wonder if you... ever were

And I, was waiting patiently,

But you never came

I realize it now, won't ever be the same... again

Won't ever be the same... again

Don’t you think everything has expiry date? not only product but memory, relationship, friendship etc etc etc. Everything has expiry date, its only the matter how long is the duration it can last. Some of the product, the expiry date is stated, make you aware that you have to get use of it before it expire, but some product, they don’t.

If the friendship of you and me getting farer and farer, we hardly contact anymore, then I know the expiry date of our friendship is close. Nothing can be done when the expiry date is near. It is like a pineapple can food, when the expiry date is close, its either you open and make desserts or let it be until it expired and throw. Perhaps, keep the can for memory. Or else, nothing can be done to prolong the duration. Why pineapple? Simply=P

But I am little weird. Okay fine I am weird. At times, even though I know the thing is already expired, I tend to keep it also. I know the duration of our relationship is expired, years ago but still I keep this relationship with me. You might ask, what is the point of keeping it? Actually, I have no idea at all, for the sake of keeping it perhaps? Just like this blog! Its my room of memory, which you were in. Appreciate a lot!

4 months +++ din update my blog ad...
i guess nobody will cum visit my blog gua...
it already abandon by me for few months...surronding with cobweb
anyway, tell u wad im doing recently...
i studying for my semester 4...
i practicing my work for compeition which is on 20th of April so on the 18th of April,i will go to singapore for competition,wish me luck ya~
other than that, i help my chefs for functions and deli...all inside kitchen and coook coook coook...
although its tiring but i enjoyed it very much~(fyi, hotel management course is not only cooking and baking juz dat i got interest on them so u can alwaz c im talkin bout it.)
ermm...i thk nowadays my life is pack with this 3 major things...
minor things?! wasting my time taking public transport from klang to college...
eating food and become fatter and fatter etc...

oh ya~im addicted to HI MY SWEETHEART recently and i luv da song inside dat drama...
i can keep on repeating da 3 songs i like if im playing my music...lolz

I miss you~
yes~is YOU!

Hello 2010~
as usual I would say time is running very fast
how fast?as fast as lightning...lolz
Look back what I did in 2009
I would said it was a wonderful year
I learnt a lot and realised a lot of things also
2010...Its gonna be another good year,I wish
A lot more goals to achieve...
Looking forward~
Hope everyone stay pink in health
Happy alwayz and
Happy New Year~

Ultrasound,X ray and blood test...
X ray shows that there are a lot of so called "wind" in my stomach
Other organs are fine and my blood test shows normal also
Finally got someone sure that what is happening in my stomach this few days which almost a week
I'm suffering for this whole week man...urgghh
Ate different kinds of medicine and spent a lot of money(at leastRM500)

The doctor said cause can be I ate something wrong or virus infection
He asked me not to drink tea and chocolate
He asked whether I like to eat chocolate or not
I was like oh shit
My mum sitting beside me started to tell the doctor I eat a lot of chocolate and eat everyday
WTH!? Yes I admit,I love chocolate but I did not eat it everyday
Doctor said it is not good to eat one whole bar of chocolate per day
Excusez-moi!? do you guys ever see I eat a lot of chocolate in one day????
Okay now I am in a big trouble
My mum said I get sick all because of chocolate
Swtz~doctor only said it might one of the cause

Whatever~
the pain is still goes on
anyway...no worries~

Its been 3 days my stomach not feeling well
I went to doctor and he said my stomach got air
like what happened last year when I was Form 5...
The doctor asked me to eat the medicines for 5 days
But then after I ate the medicines,everything still the same
The pain goes on and did not relieve
I wonder is there anything wrong inside my stomach
Since the doctor said 5 days, then I decided to wait for few days
If Monday I still not recover yet then I will ask my parents to bring me for a check up


Hope there is no crystal in my stomach
I cannot sell that crytal also><


I'm reading a book---THE SHARPER YOUR KNIFE THE LESS YOU CRY
Really enjoy reading this book
Even the previous book I read which were Julie&Julia and French Women Don't Get Fat
All related to France
Its making me dream about France
If you are lucky enough to have lived in Paris as a young man,then wherever you go for the rest of your life it stays with you,for Paris is a moveable feast----Ernest Hemingway
I wish that I can go to France one day and experience what Ernest Hemingway said...

p/s: I got a really big present for Christmas(^.^)v

My dear stomach,

Can you please behave yourself?
Don't so naughty can ah?
I treat you so good and always try not to let you starve
So in return can you please be a good girl?
Don't give trouble to me...
I really appreciate your cooperation~
Merci beaucoup~

I can't stand you
Can't stand you
Can't stand
you...behave like that

please please please~~~

Went cycling with my cousins and siblings at Taman Pertanian...
The wheather was juz nice,luckily we went early because when the time we going back,it started to rain...lolz
It was fun cycling there
Its kinda tough when cycling uphill but when comes to downhill,it will be awesome
Wind blowing against my face and all i can hear was only sound of wind
Omg~i luv it man!

I saw people playing Skytrex Adventures there
Its like tarzan playing in the jungle...
Super duple cool
Next time I go,I want to play that!!!

Finally I finished all my papers!!!
The end of Semester 2!!!BRAVO~
Did something crazy yesterday...
It is such an embarrasing thing to tell...
Anyway I know my friends will repeat this joke again and again
I would like to admit that I'm just a bit high okay!?
Got a lot of plan during this holidays
Especially crazy stuff!
I'm damn excited and looking forward!

Just finished watching Julie and Julia
Its a nice movie
But once u had read the books,of course the books will be better because its more detail
Even Harry Potter,I also feels the same

"Simple" is not exactly the same as "Easy"
This is what Julie said in her book...

Happy Holidays my dear~~^^

就是因为太在乎
才会生气
才会流泪
才会畏惧

谁可以教我如何拿走它吗？

她谈恋爱咯~
那时候我就懂他们会在一起
虽然她说不太可能
看到她那甜蜜的样子
真为她感到高兴！
要幸福哦~

我呢！？
现在就只能和食物谈恋爱
没关系，我乐在其中
反正也只有它们愿意和我谈恋爱
哈哈~
担心我的体重ing...

When I was young
I wondering why people like to be drunk when they were sad
I wondering why they want to drink alcoholic drinks which was tasted bitter
I wondering what could be that terrible until they want to drink such an awful drink
I wondering how to solve problem by getting drunk
I wondering...

Now
I suddenly wants to drink alcoholic drink
I suddenly wants to get drunk
I suddenly feels like want to run away from my life
I suddenly get the answers that I was wondering when I am young

People just want to drink because they could not figure out what they can do at this period of time
People do not think that alcoholic drinks are bitter because reality life is worst
People do not not want to think of the problem so they drink awful drinks to distract their attention from the problem
People know that problem would not solve even they get drunk but they still wish that everything will be fine when they awake

Alcoholic drink,please?
Anything can be...red wine,white wine,beer etc.

谁可以借我肩膀靠一靠？
我累了，想要休息一下下

期待某个人伸来拉我一把的那一天

I suppose to be Napoleon's wife on that day...but but everyone also thought I am a princess

30th of October(we celebrated Halloween one day earlier)
This is the first time I part of the organiser of Halloween Party and first time went Halloween Party~
Group photo...can see where am i?

I love this...very nice man~

I was in charged with snack that day...

Here are some special snacks I made

cup cakes with cobwebJack-o-lantern and skeleton...

Look like bones right? I failed to make it...too bad...

RIP cookies...

Eclairs a.k.a coffin

Thanks for everyone that helped me

Although it was tiring but I enjoyed it very much~

Vampire was trying to suck my blood...ahhh~~~yi chien u very scary!lolz

I love to see people dancing
locking,breaking,ballet,belly dance etc
I always enjoy it very much either on tv or live
I felt the boys who can dance make them more cool
Don't you think so?haha
I'm so envy that they can dance so well

I wish I could be like one of them but after practice for few times and I realised that I got not enough time to practice until the party night
I give up for the performance
I don't think so I can make it in this short period
I had a feeling of release,just a little bit because still got a lot of things waiting for me to complete
ahhhh~~~~
TIME please to pass so fast
I'm tired of chasing you

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那天 突然转身时
第一时间我认为是他
心跳突然飙高
看清楚才发现不是他

那天 她告诉我
脑海出现了自己想象的画面
心跳突然飙高
我现在不敢一个人去学校的厕所

那天。。。


越来越神经质了><

我害怕

谁可以给我安全感？

Started practice for the coming perfomance
Bowie is my teacher,she got dance belly dance before therefore she quite good with that
I got dance before but you know what???
I danced quite frequently when PRIMARY school
At that time,all the dance very simply oni and "chin chai" dance people also won't laugh at me because that time I was small
NOW!!Everythings is different
What the difference I think you guys might know
"Face" is the most important thing...

Yesterday Bowie teached me a few steps
Omg~I felt like giving up man
Even though I can dance a little bit but compare to Bowie's is like a big difference man
She is so good for that!
Shadhana and Gloria started practice today
They decided to change to another plan
They going to dance another kind of dance
But I need to stick up with belly dance
Oh shit man...belly got a lots of fat
Diet diet diet><

Nowadays my body skin very unhealty
Went to doctor and he gave medicine but it not really works
got lots of scars on my legs after mosquito bite,although I didn't touch them AT ALL
My aunt,a herbalist doctor said I shouldn't eat too much of fried food and somemore asked my mum to go and make herbal drink for me><
Hope I can controll myself not to eat fried food
I don't think so I can make it XP

Wondering what should I wear for the coming Halloween Party
got a lot of ideas but the only problem is wear to get the costume
I know Subang got one shop but that day I went with my friends,it is closed
Will try to call monday because today is public holiday


Damn excited about it man
First time go Halloween Party
I'm in charge of food and beverage
Planning to create some interesting food for the party
Idea idea idea

Ermm...
anyone got any suggestion to me what costume to wear for the party?

I got a kind of feeling
Its kinda weird because I don't know what kind of feeling is that
Anger?Jealousy?Happy?Depressed?Excited?
I totally have no idea
One thing for sure that it is not a positive feeling

Just wanna take a bath and then go to bed
Tomorrow when I open my eyes in the morning
Its the start of another brand new day,am I right?
Okay,good night~

一段时间，我常在自己的伤口上撒盐

很痛但绝口不提，为的就是想让自己坚强点

那天，盐不再使伤口感到痛

原来，伤口结痂了，不痛了，复原了

留下的疤，就当作青春的印记

默哀，欢呼。